I am taking control of my life and have been on a journey to refocus, determine what direction I want to go and heal myself. I have such an intense year and I just felt completely drained.
This week I went to a naturopath and it was really interesting. I overwhelmed her with my medical history, recent events in my life and why I came to see her. She checked my blood pressure, my eyes and a few things. I am running on empty, am completely stressed and while I am physically strong, I really should not be standing. How my body has not given up before now is amazing.
She gave me some herbs, an eating plan and I see her again in 3 weeks for a more thorough check up.
I saw my psychologist this week too. He gave me a few things to try to help with my sleep. It'll be interesting to see how it all works. He says I have made amazing progress and am handling thing very well.
I have been doing a lot of reading and thinking lately too. Trying to learn more about myself, what I really want and how I want to be living my life. I know that the life I have now, while in many ways it is good, it is not what I want.
I am making small changes and have been learning a lot about which direction I want to take. It is quite different from what I have been doing the past few years, but I am excited about where it will take me.
I am also going to be seeing a kinesiologist, getting regular massage and just trying to slow down and fix myself. I work and think at a million miles a second and that is not healthy. My psychologist said I have come a long way, but it is extremely difficult to slow down when you have an ADHD brain. I like that he doesn't refer to me as being ADHD but rather that I have ADHD traits/thought patterns/and ADHD brain.
What does this mean and why am I telling you?
I am not 100% sure I want to continue on the path I am on moneywise. I know I can be a millionaire by 30. I know I will be financially free. I also know that my health, improving my mental and physical health, my daughters and living my ideal life are all more important to me than money.
I still want to be financially free and will be. It's just that won't be as important in my life any more I don't think.